The whole entry I just wrote? the facebook thing is apparently something that my friend does all the time, be in a bunch of relationships with people he knows. I just happened to stumble upon it at this time when on both his and her fb's, the status sounded serious based on the comments. I was pretty skeptical at first, but it became a dawning horror as I thought about all of the couples that did come out of high school. the "surprise" couples nowdays.. the ones in college too.

Time to reexamine my emotions - because as relieved as I may be, I still have that lingering upset. >< Why did I get so mad about it? What's missing in my life that I REALLY wish I had? What are those precious old daydreams that I'm about to crush if I follow my current path in life?

And wait wait wait wait - how has it worked out that it's perfectly fine if i have a boyfriend, but the world ends if he gets a potential spouse?

_{maybe because he is so valuable and wanted by everybody}

art, art, art, art, art. choke.